A New Start! "HOPE"

 Friday November 13,2020

Here I go once again! A new Start to my Weight Loss Journey!

From 2012 to 2016 I had done really good, then we moved back to PA.  I had fell off track when I packed up my workout tapes. I know that's no excuse. Since we have been back here I just have had a very hard time getting back on track! I would do good a few days then off track again.

I haven't always been over weight. When I was 20 I weighed 120. It wasn't until my thirties that I started gaining weight. Then my weight just went up up up!

From 2003 to Now  I have been on a roller coaster!!

In 2003 I weighed almost 400 pounds

In 2012 I weighed 222.2

In 2016 I weighed 209

And Now November 13,2020 I weigh in at 212.6

I am proud that I haven't gained all of my weight back!!!

I have to be honest  I am miserable with myself! I don't "shop" for clothes any more. Basically I just buy whatever I think will hide my body. When I look at myself it doesn't matter what I have on because honestly all I see is a beach whale. I have given up on buying nice clothes because I just feel shame when I look at myself. 

I really want to run away from this and stick my head in the sand. It would be so much easier than facing the fact that I have done this to myself. It would be so much easier than trying to figure out how to make the changes I need to make.

But I have found that reading weight loss success stories is helping me change the way I think. It's not that I find them all particularly motivating. However, what they do offer is something that I don't always have and that is HOPE. They give me hope that I can lose 70 pounds and find the person I have buried under all of this fat.

So for today Friday The 13th, 2020 my plan is simple. Just start the journey by following that glimmer of  HOPE